Sunday, October 03, 2004
they say absence makes the heart grow fonder.
well,that can be true.but sometimes it gets too hard when you only get to catch glimpses of that person,have snatches of conversation,feel the slightest of touches,when he's gone again.
and then you wait.
im in this philosophical mood today.must be cos im missing din.
it's funny.i patched up with him for only nearly a month and it seems like i've been with him for years.i have no idea what possessed me to break up with him in the first place.i feel so bad,thinking about it now.so i guess i sort of owe him for taking me back.
okay,i'll return to earth now.
reached home at midnight yesterday,therefore waking up at 11 today.i could've slept in later but my mum was shouting at me to wake up so i did to spare my ears from further abuse.
this is a fact.there is nothing to do on sundays except eat,sleep,listen to the radio and go online.my mum should know if she hears me moaning about it when she doesn't let me out.IF she hears,i think she just blocks it out.
study?what do you mean,STUDY?then what do i go to school for hmmm?
im simply blocking out the fact that i have exams now.who likes to be reminded of things like that right...i know my parents are pinning high hopes on me,all that bochap-ness is just a facade.i know they're disappointed when i tell them i failed my maths again,even if they tell me not to worry,it's all in God's will.
or maybe that bochap-ness is their key to staying sane.i don't think it works all the time though.
so improve,you tell me.buck up and CARE for once.
i just can't be bothered.whatever,you know?yeah,there is this part of me which really wants to excel in everything,be a model student,make the folks proud.
whatever happened to the deputy head prefect,the polite and demure girl who never knew what fuck meant?the girl who used to get As for everything?you know what i mean.
guess what?that girl never existed.
i never was her.i never wanted to be her.
it's funny,i used to think i wanted to be a marine biologist and save endangered animals.[go ahead,LAUGH]
now i have no idea.seriously.most people would at least have their life plans sketched out already or something.
SUBJECT CHANGE>>>
i don't get anne rice.i never get what she's saying in her books.in case you have no idea who anne rice is,she's the author who wrote Interview With a Vampire and other books in the Vampire Chronicles.
i read her The Vampire Armand and i didn't get it at all,but it was a nice book.i mean,i didn't get it as a whole book but i know what she's writing in every page lah.i know you don't get what i'm saying.
her books have a lot of sexual connotations in them,mostly on gay sex.for example,this male vampire kisses another male vampire and yeah,they get busy.i wonder how they do that.hmmm.
from her books,one can deduce that vampires are bisexual.
im craving for laksa.
and him.
the other children are being more irritating than ever today.they simply won't shut the hell up.all of them suck.you have no idea what hell it is for me to tolerate co-habiting under the same roof as them.
okay i've got an idea.
take a hammer and some nails.get someone to hammer the nails in your fingernails,right through,then step on your fingers.
it's something like that,only less sadistic.
or you could spin around a hundred times,then jam your earphones in your ears while your discman is playing metallica at full volume,then try eating a whole lemon while reading shakespeare.
that's why you "other children"-less people will never understand.
me out~
funkadelic @ 1:14 AM
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