Sunday, February 13, 2005
we all know what day it is tomorrow. yeah. valentine's.
the day all couples look forward to. the day when they have the licence to display that extra bit of public affection to each other. the day when the roses and chocolates come out.
okay i'll say this straight out. i miss having a boyfriend.
yes, this is syafiqin. no one's fucking around with her blog. im having some sort of sentimental shit i have to get my mind off so i'll blog about it.
but seriously, i miss having a boyfriend. i miss having someone to look forward to seeing everyday when i go to school. having a hand to hold, a shoulder to rest on. having someone send me home. having someone you know is yours. knowing that someone will always be there.
i don't care about the gifts. i don't care if he doesn't get me anything for my birthday. i don't care if he's dirt poor. actually it's better if he is because less girls will be after him. heh.
i've only had one relationship which i consider serious, but that's because it lasted for a fucking long time. more than 6 months i think. that's crazy.
don't get me wrong. i have no intention of getting back with him whatsoever. yes, the memories were nice. but its time to move on, you know? im still young, i can't expect the relationships i forge now to last my whole fucking life. but maybe... if it's fated i can't stop it, can i?
i sound like some wuss man.
what the hell. might as well i continue. sometimes i see couples on the streets and i feel kind of melancholic. abit of regret. wistful. slightly bitter. a whole lot of longing. then i'll force myself to smile and look away. be thankful you're alive, stupid. you don't need a guy. and all that feminist crapshit.
three guesses if it works or not.
duh if it does then why the hell am i writing this shit?
i don't know if i'm in love right now though. i don't know. really. but i do like this guy. haha no more details nyah nyah. no pojnt in asking either because i ain't tellin. but if you happen to be the guy and you ask me, maybe i'll tell.
hahaha im spinning bullshit. but its all true yeah.
funkadelic @ 4:50 AM
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